hungergamesobsession

ugh. i dont even know what to do at this point. im so beyond insecure and its ridiculous. like why the hell are you so worried about the way you look? i guess i got enough bullying and shit because of my weight and now that its kinda stop im still bullying myself over it. after i lose some of it im still not good enough for myself. do you know how pathetic that is? do you know how pathetic i feel? ive tried to not be like this but i dont know honestly i still end up doing it. i still end up eating myself alive. trying to stop myself from the misery i put myself through. i wonder how today is gonna go maybe i should eat a little less than yesterday because i gained a few pounds back. why is everything so negative. i guess shit happens and you just gotta be strong and get through it.

“Are you trying to rape me, sir?”

So i did question it. I questioned us. You. Me. Everything. Look where that got me. I asked myself why in the hell would he want to be with a mess like me? Thinking theres nothing great. Theres nothing at all. I was right. You left. Gone faster than i expected. Now when i text you your reply seems to always be “what”. Great for me right. Seeing someone that meant so much to me turn to someone i dont know anymore. Someone who doesnt care. Who doesnt love me. Who probably wont ever. But hey on the brightside there isnt one. You just lost him. Hes gone. Forever. Never to come back.